What I will and won't miss

About being pregnant

I won't miss waddeling like a penguin (in Jentry and Brinley's words)
I won't miss not being able to roll in bed and having to wake up everytime I want to move...then when I do move my bones popping.
I won't miss having to pee every five minutes during the day and every two hours during the night.
I won't miss the puking and the puking and the puking.
I won't miss feeling nauseated when Im not puking.
I won't miss peeing my pants all the time when I sneeze, cough, or puke.
I won't miss heartburn.
I won't miss having to share my body with another human being.

I will miss feeling this baby move
I will miss knowing that Im the only one holding it. And he depends on me for everything.
I will miss knowing that while he is in me...hes not really growing up. Once they come, they grow up way too fast.
I'll miss having an excuse to be fat, and to eat.

What I cant wait for is to see his face. To hold his tiny hands and feet. To see Scott with his first born son. I cant wait to see how the kids act towards him. Brinley getting to be a big sister. She's been waiting a long time she says. I cant wait to smell him. I cant wait to hear him. Even if hes crying. I cant wait to look at him and wonder how we made something so perfect. Even if he isnt "perfect" he will be to me. I cant wait to rock him. I just cant wait for him to be here...how much longer do I have to wait?

Will I EVER have this baby??

Im beginnning to wonder.

STILL three CM. But he stripped my membranes. So I turned on some Christmas music and Jentry roller bladed in circles and I walked back and forth between the kitchen and front room for 30 minutes. But it doesnt feel like it did anything but make me want to go to sleep. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

And I even did a little hip shaking when Rocking Around the Christmas Tree came on....you would have thought that that would do SOMETHING!

Notta.

Eight? Already???

Where has the time gone? How did Jentry turn 8 already??? I cant believe it. I look at her and she isnt even a kid anymore. She is getting more and more features of an young girl now. :( She has opinions. She has idea's. She knows so much more then I think she should and I wonder HOW?? Where is time going? Shes just growing up. I remember being sooo excited for her to be born...not knowing what I was in for...she changed our lives forever. But for the best. I look at her and think about all the things she has went through with us. She has been here pretty much our whole marriage in one form or another. She's the first. Our little guinea pig. Helping us work all the bugs out. I love her.

The last few months with her have kind of been a challenge. I dont know if it's because Im pregnant...or because this is just how it is when you have a girl that is growing up. We butt heads a lot. I expect a lot from her. Can't wait for the teenage years. They aren't far off.

Yesterday, for her birthday, we did whatever SHE wanted too. So we went and saw Santa, got a picture with him...went to Sizzler for dinner and then went to the Festival of Lights...and drove through two times. Just for her. She loved being able to pick what we did. Tonight we will have a party. Shes very excited for that...says its like having 2 birthdays. It is.

I love that girl.

Am I in labor???

Lost a lot of a mucus plug. Dull back ache. Am I in labor? I dont know. I wanna say yes, I wanna say no! ahhhhhh I guess only time will tell. Im scared.

Things I dont wanna forget...

With this new baby coming I know a lot of attention is going to be put on him...and Brinley is just going to grow up without me noticing. It happened with Jentry when Brinley came along.

Theres some cute words that she says, that she is starting to say right....and I know Im going to miss the old words. This post will probably be periodically edited when I hear a new one...or remember one she says.

Here are some that are my favorites...

Unner-nunners for underware. She started saying underware right a couple weeks ago and I told her she wasnt allowed to say it that way. She thought it was funny, so kept saying underware...now shes back to unner nunners...and Im pleased.

Much. I like how she says it instead of saying "a lot" or something like that... She will say "You are in much trouble" or "I like it much."

I like when she wakes up in the morning and tells me she had lots of dreams. Ill ask her what she dreamt about...and she will say "that I love you" I hope she keeps dreaming that.

The other day she wanted to sleep at Grandmas house but it wasnt a good time. I told her that I would be sad if she slept over...cause I would miss her. And she said "Would your heart be sad?" I said yes. And she said hers would be too.

I like when I ask her how much does she love me...and she puts her hands behind her back and says...this much. I guess thats a lot. lol

She used to say grandpa and grandma like gampa and ga maw... how she says gwampa and gwandma. I love how she puts an emphasis on the w sound.

I cant know. She says that instead of I dont know. But shes starting to say I dont know a lot more. :-(

I was holding her last night cause she fell asleep on me. Shes not going to be my baby much longer. That makes me sad.

Already posted about it on the boards...

But just wanted to keep record of it here.

Went for the weekly appt today. Weight gain this week 0.
Did an internal and was able to feel the babys head...even tho he is up way high. Thats why his heartbeat is so high. So hes head down. Im 1 cm and 20% effaced and soft cervix.

So much for my productive day...

So my list...didnt get any shorter. lol

Yesterday we woke up a little late (930), got ready, left, went out to breakfast at Village Innwith the kids. Went to Toys R Us, Costco, Walmart, Target and Sears. Got a lot of Christmas shopping done, but by the time we got home I was BEAT! My feet hurt so bad. So I folded a couple batches of laundry and we ate pizza for dinner. Jentry did end up taking the decorations down today...so I dont have to worry about them being in the Welcome Home pics. Thanks Kathleen. But theres still so much to do. It will get done...one day.

List of what I need to do this weekend...

I asked Scott if he could REALLY help me this weekend to get things done around the house. Just so I can feel as if things are getting done, even if the house is wrecked once again when the baby comes...at least I know, it WAS clean. So heres my list. It will be edited as I do things and as I think of more things to do.

Clean the WHOLE HOUSE
Get the laundry done
Throw away mismatched socks
Clean out the playroom
Clean out and off my desk
Clean computer room
Scrub walls
Scrub Floors
Get all halloween decorations put away
Move couches and vacuum under them

Maybe we will get some of this done...Im really not looking forward to it. But I need to get this house in order.

Its sooooooo embarassing having a mom!

So this is what I get when I go to the "Invention Convention" at school. Jentry wont even look at me, too embarassed!!! Its all starting......I remember the days of being embarassed of my parents too. But Im the cool mom, right? I guess not.

Just a complaining post...

I dont think I will be able to make it another five weeks!!! Not with all of my sanity anyway. It hurts to walk, it hurts to sit, it hurts to lay. Im tired. I HURT. My pubic bone is going to split in half. Im going to topple over front ways (if that makes sense) Were our bodies really designed to handle this? I dont think so. Im tired, but I cant fall asleep, then I do, then I wake up and gotta pee so bad its coming out of my eyes. I pee, then I cant fall BACK asleep. As Im laying there I have heartburn and feel like I cant breathe.

December seems soooooooooooooooo far away. Every single day seems like an eternity! And then to make it worse, the doc said he isnt even turned. Dag namit, hes supposed to be ready to COME OUT!

The house is a wreck. I cant let a baby come into this mess. Things are EVERYWHERE. Theres laundry EVERYWHERE. Im home all day, why dont I do it? Cause Im too stinking tired. I look at it and groan. Then the day goes by and the only thing Ive done is cleaned the kitchen and the living room. Thats all I do everyday. Im supposed to be getting ready for this baby...why am I not? Why dont I ever get the nesting feeling. I WANT THAT!

Scott would help but hes been so swamped with work lately he cant even get all of that done. Im so glad its 8:30, Im going to bed in 30 minutes...and Im going to sleep dag namit! (I tell myself that every night) IM TIRED!!!

Invention Convention...

Jentrys 2nd grade is doing an "Invention Convention" They have to make something thats useful. We have had almost two weeks to do it. Its due tomorrow. Scott and I have been trying to figure out what to help her make for 2 weeks!!! Finally we decided a bird house. That's useful right? So thats what Scott and Jentry are working on right now. Brinley thinks she needs to help too. She is drawing on all of the wood pieces that they arent using.

Sure is nice to have a DH. I soooooooo didnt want to have to help with this project. Id cut a finger off.

Lady at Walmart asked when I was due...

And started a whole conversation with the whole line of people. LOL She told me that her "baby" was in college. I told her Im not looking forward to that day. Thats why I keep having more...they grow up to fast. She said, "Just enjoy them when they are little...then it wont be so bad when they grow up" I dont know about that...Im already dreading Jentry "leaving the nest" I dont think Ill ever let her move out. I think its against my rules...she will just have to get married and move her family in with us. I might regret saying that. lol

Dandelions are Booootiful!!!

Today while going to Jentrys school parade Brinley and I were walking. She was looking for all the dandelions. She loves Dandelions. Thinks they are THE prettiest flowers ever. I usually have a cup of water with a few dandelions floating in them from Brinley. Everytime she finds them, she picks them for me. When we were walking she kept saying..."Look at all of those bootiful dandelions"

Some people try to kill these beautiful flowers (us included) but not Brinley. She treasures them. Nothing could be more pretty to her then a green patch of grass with 100 dandelions in it. Ill miss it when she stops picking me dandelions.

just seein....

If my republishing worked.

Ha ha ha FOUND IT!

I had to go in and click something like see title...silly me.

Still dont know how to do a dang title.

Anyway, just sitting here feeling like Im in highschool. The CD player just skipped to Smashing Pumpkins. Reminds me of the "old days". When I first met Scott he loooooved them. I had their meloncollie cd. I liked them...but didnt looooove them. One of the first things I did was paint Scotts face for a S.P. concert. Him and Ryan (friend) both got five bucks from the local radio station for it. lol. What are our kids going to think when they get older...will they think this is old people music? Or cool oldies.

Our song is Beautiful by S.P. How romantic. lol

So, I went to Wal-Mart today. Quite a different experience when you don't have a 3 year old with you and its 8:30 in the morning. No one is there and no one is asking "Can I have this?" 14 times on every isle. Had to get some laundry detergent and some baby laundry detergent. Hoping to get some laundry done today. Then after I went to McD. and got a sausage egg and cheese Mcgriddle combo with a mr. pibb. Only about a 1000 calorie breakfast. But it sure is good.

Not having Brinley is weird. It got me thinking last night...what if we would have stopped at one kid. What would I be doing right now? Would I have a job outside the home while Jentry is at school? Would I be doing a lot more stuff at her school? Actually it made me sad to think if we only had one. How much we would miss out on having no Brinley. She's a handful (what kid isnt) and totally different from Jentry. But she's our Boo. And I dont know what we would do without her. Scott was missing her like crazy last night too. I thought it was cute how he was the last one left at the door waving at her as she drove away in Grandpa's truck.

Well I have lots to do today...no energy to do it...but that is nothing new. I'll get something done. Scott has Young Mens tonight (church calling..he works with the 16-18 y.o. boys) so he wont be home til about 9 pm. But he didnt have too much work to do this morning so Ill get to see him around lunch time hopefully.

Ok...enuff rambeling....adios.

Ok got some stuff done today. I went downstairs and cleaned out the hole. Got all the clothes for my sister...now if she would just come and get them. And went through all of our junk. Saved most of it. Just organized it. But there were about 4 bags going to the DI (like Goodwill). It took awhile cause I got stuck reading some of Scott old notes he wrote me when we were dating and first married. awww. One was talking about how he really liked the name Jentry and how it kept popping into his head. I dont even remember half of those notes...so I spent a lot of time reading them. I'll never throw those away. But my gosh, what ever posesed me to save every magazine that ever was sent to our house?

Im thinking I will get a few things done tomorrow too. My dad just came and picked up Brinley to take her camping with them until FRIDAY! Thats a long time! I already miss the little stinker. She was so excited to go. Every time she went out of my dads sight while he was here, she would tell me "Dont let Grandpa leave me!" I welcome the break...but I know tomorrow I will be missing her like crazy while Jentry is at school. But I do have to look at the good side...no Nickelodeon, Disney or PBS on TV!!! WAHOO!

I need to figure out a few things...

How to make a list so I can check it off. I know if I put breakfast, lunch, and dinner in there...I will at least cross those off.

And how to make a title for each post.

Ill figure it out....one day.

I guess I will do a get to know me post...

Im Leslie. That was hard to figure out. I am married to Scott and we have 2 beautiful girls. Jentry and Brinley and a boy on the way. I think we are going to name him Ty. Unless something cuter comes along. He's due in about 7 1/2 weeks...on December 15th. I have sooooooooo much to do to get ready for him...I was thinking of getting most of it done this week...but I say that EVERY week! Gotta clean up downstairs and get out all the baby clothes I can use from the girls. Which isnt going to be much. Maybe a few onesies. But I just gotta get it done. Brinley might go up with my mom and dad tonight or tomorrow camping. So that might give me some time to get some of it done. Who knows. Anyway, thats it for now. I dont know how much Ill write on this thing...only time will tell....